I'm seriously so down mood nowsaday. Guy and friends out there, you can saw my laugh, my smile and you think I'm really happy? I'm started to question myself too. I wanna cry out most of the time but is there any shoulder for me to lend it on? I have met so many guy out there but isn't it a player too? Alcohol is just a way i used to forget myself, that why I'm a alcoholic. which guys around me is real and which is player that just want to play me out? I really can't figure out. I'm losing my ways right now. Will the right one appear and bring me along? I really need you, need the one who love me truly to hold me hand and walk out with me. Don't ever judge me by look cos that not me. No one can understand me by look. If people out there think I'm play, flirt or easy going gal. I'm sorry to say I'm not. If you have this mindset before, i think you are not suitable to be my friends.